aiyah.. this morn i woke up with a rather heavy heart man.. just woke up n can't make it for shepherding.. thank God my shepherd oso ovslept.. haha.. at least i'm not tt guilty liao.. haha..yest just quarreled w a fren coz ov a small misunderstanding. n she din even msg or wat to apologize coz i called her in the morn n the phone jus shut off half way.. so i tot she hung up on mi or wat.. so after like 30 min later, she called but i either din pick up or i hung up too.. so bad rite..?? i mean y call after 30 min, can't she call immediately?? i couldn't sleep coz i was feeling extremely vexed about it..
den i decided to msg some frenz tt havent been contacting... miz dem all like siao.. tok to shirley.. my daughter.. haha.. she told mi she's attached to a guy 2 yrs her junior n i was like so shocked.. coz it's just not her kuan to accept any passin guys without e qualities she's looking for.. xin.. if u're reading tis*all the best*
haha..
listening to the remedy by jason mrax.. sounds like a christian song..~~i.... won't worry bot life always..~~
Yup.. so after i put down the phone w my daughter. i called nancy.. the fren i quarreled w lah.. called up like umpteen times and it's like she put in i silent mode. well.. i jus conclude tt she's avoidin my calls..so i gave up.. trying to coax myself to slp n mind u.. it was like 3 plus in the morn loh.. i needed to vent my anger so v badly.. normally i'll jus go to the paino but itz so late so i decided to draw on my wall again.. itz a stupid act cultivated since young.. i still have pics of mi drawing on the walls.. i guessed my mum wants to keep it as an evidence.. haha.. ay.. i act bang e keys once den kena harangued by my mum coz itz in the wee hr like tt..
den tt girl called me at 4 plus coz i sms her to give me an explaination of wat happened earlier on in the morn.. aiyah.. i always do tis kinda stupid stuff wan leh.. den guessed wat.. just now i went to c some stuffs she posted online n i found out she cheated me AGAIN!!!
Aiyoh.. den i realized tt my eyes are super puffy and my body aching and more pimples.. it always happen when i slp late.. i made it worst by eating spicy stuffs consecutively for 3 days.
coz shepherding was pushed to tonite tt's y i'm able to blog now.. later might be going down to nyp to look for my evadearez bro howie.. jaime noes him too... wonder how he looks like now.. it's like we met up a few months back n suddenly we jus stop contacting... i smsed my frenz there n its like they all booked mi to have lunch w them.. haha.. i tink i'm gonna fei si!!
i've been thinking about singlehood recently.. i used to crave for relationships but now i guess.. i'm seeing singlehood in a new light. in fact i'm enjoying it now.. i can do so much more being single.. so free.. n i tell u.. u'll def be richer than being attached.. Enjoy evey bit of ur singlehood!! u might not be able to in future..
having so much tots in me now.. i missed my frez alot..auntie sharon..hanni..chen yu.. blah blah blah.. n of coz shirlz whom i tok to last nite.. miss ya guys!! big time! we used to call ourselves 4 da tian wang.. ahaha.. u noe.. being single oso means u can enjoy frenzhip to the fullest.. Yippee..
currently i'm reading tis book:becomin an authentic christian...*i tink i got toothache leh*
eve got me tis book mfor my bady in 2002.. i haven even start to read. itz a great book man.. by our all time fav uncle bill... hehe.. itz just mi to call older man uncle.. like Frank Llyod Wright will be uncle frankie.. ya.. that kinda tin.. many christians are still living an inauthentic christian life.. i admit i'm really talking bot myself.. really need God to change me.. i really wana have more trust in the lord and love Him more.. will be leading pnw today.. i pray tt every pnw would be a breakthrough for myself n the grp.. i'm so sick of praising God with reservation. we shld e free to dance and express our love and gratitude freely. or else itz not praising at all.. so pp if u're reading tis, i'm sure u noe wat i mean.. don jus clap for the sake of clapping or sing for the sake of singing.. all these all craps in the eyes of God. Free urself to dance for the Lord.. *i wana dance like david danced.. i wana sing like david sang...* david was despised for the dance he offered to God. Today's pnw.. i'm going to be like him.. hehe..

I pray to God each and every day
To keep my family near
To guide and watch over us
And to banish all our fears.

I pray he restores my faith in him
And helps me look forward to tomorrow
To help me love life even more
And take away my sorrows.

A prayer for my friends
Is never far away
They are in every little thought
That ever comes my way.

There is a very special prayer
I pray each and every day
That God will watch over my unsaved frenz
Very soon they'll be back in the loving arms of God

A final prayer to thank God above
For all he's sent my way
And only by his graces
Will I wake to another day

I'm really drained for the past few days.. alot of things had ocurred n i'm really not sure if i have the strength to carry on and the courage i need to face each day.. sometimes words not spoken out of love or with every intention to cheat hurts so much..itz sometimes this words tt took away every hope u have.. i have nothing but faith as small as mustard seed. this is all i need to combat all the attacks coming my way.. help me forgive my fren this very day..

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